Thursday, May 19, 2005

My life is in shambles!!!!

Yes, so that is a little melodramatic, but Rooms will understand. When it seemed like nothing was going our way, we would yell that "My life is in shaaaamblesssss!"

Seriously though, I feel like I'm all derailed. I'm still "happy" (as evidenced by my post March 24th posts), but I'm not really on the right track. In the last 6 months I've been drinking way way more than I ever have in my life, and I feel like I've been on a downward spiral and I've come to the end of that road. I'm just not a fan any more. NO GOOD can come of drinking. Yeah, it may give that temporary high, but I'm just not that into it anymore. I want so much more... I want all of the things that I love and adore, and it seems like I'm losing them because of drinking. So the drinking is going to stop and the fun is going to start. The fun is going to be getting my life back in order. The fun is going to involve lots of hanging out with my sister (who's here now), Addy (who will be here this weekend and then again starting in late June until September), hiking, and moving to my new house. The fun is not going to involve a lot of alcohol. The fun will also involve a lot less Vin, who MANY MANY people seem to think is a bad influence in my life, and I guess I'm finally starting to wake up and realize that if all of my friends are saying something, *maybe* I should listen. I've definitely heard it from a lot of you. So we'll see how that goes. Just chill out, maake subtle changes in my life, and see how that all plays out. So that's the super high level summary of my current deal... I'll let you know what happens this weekend!!!

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